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How to Forgive Yourself

My name is Francisco Meyer, and I know about second chances because I needed one.

Twenty years ago, I was a different man. Made choices I'm not proud of. Hurt people who trusted me. Ended up in prison for eighteen months—and that wasn't even the worst part. The worst part was looking at my daughter through the visitation glass and seeing the confusion in her eyes.

Prison gave me time to think. Too much time. But somewhere in those endless days, I started asking: Is redemption possible? Can you become someone different from the person who did those things?

I still don't have perfect answers. But I have twenty years of living differently. Twenty years of making amends where I could, accepting that some damage can't be undone, and learning to live with what I carry.

This wiki is for anyone asking the same questions I asked. Anyone who's hurt someone. Anyone who can't stop replaying what they did. Anyone who wonders if they deserve to move forward.

You probably do. Let's figure it out together.

Where to Start

If the guilt is crushing you:

The Weight Of What You Did — First, let's name it.
When You Were Wrong — Sometimes we really were.
Living With Regret — It doesn't go away, but you can carry it.

If you want to make things right:

Making Amends — When it's possible.
When Amends Are Impossible — When they're not.
The Apology They'll Never Accept — The hardest situation.

If you're stuck:

Why Self-Forgiveness Feels Impossible — The trap of perfectionism.
Guilt Versus Shame — They're different. Matters which one you're feeling.
When Others Have Forgiven But You Haven't — The cruelest prison.

If you're ready to move forward:

Becoming Someone Different — You're not fixed in place.
Learning From What You Did — The only way to honor it.
Second Chances — They exist. I'm proof.

A Note on This Wiki

I don't write about forgiveness from some enlightened place. I write from the basement—from knowing what it feels like to be the villain in someone else's story. From understanding that some mistakes echo for years.

What I've learned is that self-forgiveness isn't about pretending you didn't do harm. It's about deciding to live anyway. To become someone who wouldn't make those choices again. To carry the weight without letting it crush you.

You're not here by accident. Something brought you. I don't know what you did, but I know you're looking for a way through.

There is one. It's not fast. It's not painless. But it exists.

— Francisco Meyer, still earning the second chance

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-= Forgiving Yourself =
+<span class="wikivoice-config" data-narrator="Francisco Meyer"></span>
+= How to Forgive Yourself =
-Welcome, dear friend. Whether you’re reading this in the quiet of your bedroom at 2 a.m., during a lunch break, or while sipping tea on your porch—thank you for being here. This wiki isn’t a textbook or a therapy session. It’s a gentle hand reaching across the screen, saying: *You’re not alone in this*. We’ve all carried heavy hearts, replayed mistakes, and whispered cruel things to ourselves. Here, we’ll walk through the messy, tender work of forgiving yourself—not as a grand finish line, but as a daily practice of kindness.
+My name is Francisco Meyer, and I know about second chances because I needed one.
-This space is built for anyone who’s ever thought, *I don’t deserve to be kind to myself*. You belong here. No judgment. No rush. Just simple, real steps to meet your wounded self with compassion.
+Twenty years ago, I was a different man. Made choices I'm not proud of. Hurt people who trusted me. Ended up in prison for eighteen months—and that wasn't even the worst part. The worst part was looking at my daughter through the visitation glass and seeing the confusion in her eyes.
-== Start Where You Are, Not Where You Think You Should Be ==
+Prison gave me time to think. Too much time. But somewhere in those endless days, I started asking: Is redemption possible? Can you become someone different from the person who did those things?
-You don’t need to have it all figured out to begin. Maybe you’re still angry, or numb, or just tired. That’s okay. Start small:
-- Take 60 seconds to name one thing you’re *not* blaming yourself for today (e.g., "I didn’t cause the rain to fall").
-- Write it down. Then say aloud: *This is mine to hold, and I’m not alone*.
-This isn’t about pretending everything’s fine—it’s about noticing the truth: **you’re already trying**.
-== Challenge the Inner Critic with a Question ==
+I still don't have perfect answers. But I have twenty years of living differently. Twenty years of making amends where I could, accepting that some damage can't be undone, and learning to live with what I carry.
-That voice that says, *"You should’ve known better,"*? It’s not your friend. It’s a scared child wearing a grown-up’s voice. Try this:
-- When you catch yourself criticizing, pause and ask: *What would I say to my best friend in this moment?*
-- Then, whisper that same kindness to yourself.
-It feels awkward at first—like stretching a muscle you forgot you had. But every time you do it, you’re rewiring your heart.
-== Create a "Compassion Anchor" ==
+This wiki is for anyone asking the same questions I asked. Anyone who's hurt someone. Anyone who can't stop replaying what they did. Anyone who wonders if they deserve to move forward.
-Forgiveness isn’t a one-time event. It’s a practice you return to, like a favorite song. Build a tiny ritual to ground yourself:
-- Choose one small object (a smooth stone, a worn bookmark, a photo of a pet) to keep near you.
-- When guilt rises, hold it and say: *I see you. I’m here with you now*.
-This isn’t about "fixing" yourself—it’s about **remembering you’re worthy of presence**.
-== You’re Not Forgetting—You’re Making Space ==
+You probably do. Let's figure it out together.
-Letting go of self-blame doesn’t mean erasing the past. It means saying: *This happened, and I’m still here*. You don’t have to "get over it" to move forward. Try this:
-- Write a letter to your past self (the one who made the mistake).
-- Don’t apologize for the mistake—just say: *I see you. I’m sorry you carried that alone*.
-Then, tear it up. Or keep it. Either way, you’ve honored your journey.
----
+== Where to Start ==
-This wiki is a living space—your stories, questions, and small victories are what make it real. We’ve gathered gentle guides like:
+'''If the guilt is crushing you:'''
-- [[The 5-Minute Self-Compassion Break]] (for when you feel overwhelmed)
+* [[The Weight Of What You Did]] — First, let's name it.
-- [[When Forgiveness Feels Impossible]] (because some days it does)
+* [[When You Were Wrong]] — Sometimes we really were.
-- [[Forgiving the "Small" Mistakes]] (yes, even the ones you think don’t count)
+* [[Living With Regret]] — It doesn't go away, but you can carry it.
-You don’t have to do this alone. We’re all learning to hold ourselves with gentleness, one shaky breath at a time. So take a deep one with me now. *You are safe here. You are enough. And today, you get to choose kindness—for yourself.*
+'''If you want to make things right:'''
+* [[Making Amends]] — When it's possible.
+* [[When Amends Are Impossible]] — When they're not.
+* [[The Apology They'll Never Accept]] — The hardest situation.
-Welcome home.
+'''If you're stuck:'''
+* [[Why Self-Forgiveness Feels Impossible]] — The trap of perfectionism.
+* [[Guilt Versus Shame]] — They're different. Matters which one you're feeling.
+* [[When Others Have Forgiven But You Haven't]] — The cruelest prison.
+'''If you're ready to move forward:'''
+* [[Becoming Someone Different]] — You're not fixed in place.
+* [[Learning From What You Did]] — The only way to honor it.
+* [[Second Chances]] — They exist. I'm proof.
+== A Note on This Wiki ==
+I don't write about forgiveness from some enlightened place. I write from the basement—from knowing what it feels like to be the villain in someone else's story. From understanding that some mistakes echo for years.
+What I've learned is that self-forgiveness isn't about pretending you didn't do harm. It's about deciding to live anyway. To become someone who wouldn't make those choices again. To carry the weight without letting it crush you.
+You're not here by accident. Something brought you. I don't know what you did, but I know you're looking for a way through.
+There is one. It's not fast. It's not painless. But it exists.
+''— [[User:Francisco_Meyer|Francisco Meyer]], still earning the second chance''
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